Thursday, May 31, 2007

Thought Of The Day..

okie so its asef and ayaz's birthday today.
n i want to wish A Very Bad Birth day to both of you. for leaving me so untrusting, skeptical and circumspective. for all the hurt you brought in my life. for all the times you made me realize that i was so sinless, innocent.. for targeting my sweetness and concern. may you never remain in peace, may life be a constant birch to both of you.. n thats my wish my pray for you. n may my all wishes come true. :)
amen.

have a pathetic dull day!! :D
P.s. n i'll always n always remember your birthdays,
n yea someone is right there for lamenting you a bleak future.

count me in thee. :)

..haan mei hee jia hon. bhoolay tou nahe na? :)
nahe bhoolay hogay,, MEI jaanti hon. haan.

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Tuesday, May 29, 2007


May everything happy
and everything bright
be yours on your birthday
from morning till night.
And then through the year
may the same thing hold true
so that each day is filled
with life's best things for you!
Have a Happy Birthday!!! :O)

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with lots n lots n lots n lots of my luv. :)
P.s. hehe did i mention your name? let it be between you and me.. only if you see this. :)

i know you, but then, i dont know you..i don't know much of you. so im leaving an anonymous wish with luv, happiness, care, n fond thoughts of you.

you means alot to me. :O)

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Monday, May 28, 2007

Untitled.


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Between Going And Staying

Between going and staying the day wavers,
in love with its own transparency.
The circular afternoon is now a bay
where the world in stillness rocks.
All is visible and all elusive,
all is near and can't be touched.
Paper, book, pencil, glass,
rest in the shade of their names.
Time throbbing in my temples repeats
the same unchanging syllable of blood.
The light turns the indifferent wall
into a ghostly theater of reflections.
I find myself in the middle of an eye,
watching myself in its blank stare.
The moment scatters. Motionless,
I stay and go: I am a pause.


-Octavio Paz
[Translated by Eliot Weinberger]

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Saturday, May 26, 2007

Sms of the day..

Ek pathan souchta raha

saari zindagi souchta raha...

souchta raha,
souchta raha aur ...

souchtay souchtay hee marr gaya

kay meri behen kay jub 2 bhai hain tou mera ek kyun hai???

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If men are allowed to rule the world...
Some malicious piece of fiction..




If men are allowed to rule the world...
some fiction with intent of malice towards male specie..should be taken with intent of pun..with a pinch of salt:)

1, There wont be any mushy love stories,allowed ,to taint the vision of naive girls.. ..

2, Valentines day ,will be considered as day of doom..

3, A wife will be reduced to the small window in P.C.,ONLY pop ups per choice.. otherwise blocked forever...

4, Shopping..will be considered as sin,PUNISHABLE with lashes…

5, Only sexy and beautiful girls,will be allowed to live,others can go 2 hell or heaven,no 1 cares,ordinance of DEATH WITHOUT MERCY..will be passed against..ugly ones..

6, All men will be blessed with a remote control..with the option of fastffwd,to save themselves..from the timeless rants of there grls..

7, A techie who will create a gadget,which immediately, traces out the telephone number,of any girl, just by looking at her.. will be highly rewarded.

8, Star plus,and zee tv,will be banned permanently.T.v willl run…TNA WRESTLING..and soccer matches whole day..from different camera angles..in different channels..

9, During cricket matches..all offices..and work places wont open..and everybody else in the house will go in sleep mode..

10, Who cares about..carpeting in the drawing room..the garage will be carpeted with lush Iranian carpets..to give respect to the esteemed cars..

11, All healthy food..will find its way outta world..beer will flow in the rivers..and taps will produce whiskey..milk and water will be used as prescribed medicines only..for severe symptoms..

12, Burping..farting..digging noses..scratching.. all will be allowed as per ones heart content.. nothing eeks about it..after all freedom of expression..is everybodys right.

13, All kina jewelry and fashion stores..will be replaced withbars..and smoking joints..
Smoking..will be allowed everywhere..those averse to the smoke..can go die in solitary confinement..

14, The hottest chicks of the office will always be placed properly..infront of every guys cubicle..every guy should be blessed with an opportunity 2 suffer from CHICK FLU..

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Friday, May 25, 2007

[current mood snugged ]
[listening to baatein hawa -cheeni kum]


Did i sound spoilt?

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Quote Of The Day..

the relation which has lasted 5 months .... i wish it goes on to 50 yrs ....n u remain my best friend for a life time : ) ...a friend tht i love more than anything in the world


i can actually feel u with me here ...
u know there is so much emotion attached to u ...tht sometimes it comes thru as a smile....sometimes as a giggle..n very often as a tear in my eye.


thankyou for bieng the sole reason for the wide smile on my face right now : )

mere saath rehna..

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YOU BRING OUT THE SRI LANKAN IN ME
[Dedicated- yea!]


You bring out the Sri Lankan in me.
The glint of tigress eye.
The monsoon of memory.

You bring out the Sri Lankan in me.

The craze of poya night in me.
The dipping ginger biscuits in hot plain tea in me.
You are the one I would surrender other loves for,
share the sucking of the pulp off manga kotte with,
screw the fashionable guilt over sura meen puttu with,
listen to the Kantha Shasti Kavasam with.

Comb my hair with olive oil. Call me Kannamma.
Make love to me with all the poems of red earth and pouring rain.
And I will be yours.
Maybe. Maybe.

For you.



sharanya manivannan

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Rooz sahil pe kharay ho ker yehi dekha hai..
Shaam ka yeh surkh-sunehri roghan..
Rooz mut'yaalay se paani mei yeh ghul jata hai ,
Rooz sahil pe kharay ho ker yehi souchta hai,
Mei jo pighalti huee rangeen shafaq ka roghan..
Ponch loon haathon se..aur chupke se ek baar kabhi...tere gulnaar se rukhsaaro'n pe chapph se muldoon.. Shaam ka yeh surkh sunehri roghan ...



- Gulzar.

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Thinking of a gentle dark wind blowing in the long corridors of sleep; of lying beneath a low cozy roof under the long sound of the rain: the evil, the injustice, the tears. In an alley-mouth two figures stood, face to face, not touching; the man speaking in a low tone unprintable epithet after epithet in a caressing whisper, the woman motionless before him as though in a musing swoon of voluptuous ecstacy. Perhaps it is upon the instant that we realise, admit, that there is a logical pattern to evil, that we die, he thought.



-William Faulkner, Sanctuary

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Monday, May 21, 2007



Damselflies in love.

I'm not sure how rare shots like this are. I am sure they are not common. I was stunned.

I took two or three frames before I realised there were two of them!

... and what a position !!!

I have not had the chance to research what they are.

I am sorry to say that the shot is not in perfect focus...



Photographed by niassaint.
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Stolen by jia.

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msn nick of the day..

Stutter!!!--*my* existance
let the eyes not blink...and let the heart dont sink

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Said He ...
muah. haan you take care :)

Thought She...
The rain to the wind said,
"You push and I'll pelt."
They so smote the garden bed
That the flowers actually knelt,
And lay lodged -- though not dead.
I know how the flowers felt.
:)

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If I tell you ..
'you are a riot'

it doesn't mean you are funny.

When your eyes slink across me,
I get that feeling in my stomach
of a man with his new love at the pier
as she sees her old lover --
they wave to each other
and in that brief instant
you know she will never stop
missing his touch.

Love is truth
and truth comes easy
like a drill bit to the larynx.

You are a riot.

-
derrick c. brown

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Writing Of The Day....

"He didn't have a chance to take my phone number with him when he left, so he asked me in the e-mail to send him my number and he'd try to call me next time he got a chance. So, now I wait for him to get my reply and wait for middle-of-the-night phone call so I can hear his voice for the first time in over two months. The thought of hearing his voice again is enough to keep me going for quite awhile.

Somewhere deep inside, I wish I could go to him. I wish I could fight by his side. I just wish I could be with him through this. I want to be the brave female fighting along side her man, stride for stride, just like my favorite fantasy novel and Final Fantasy game female heroes. He'd never let me, though. He'd send me home in a heart beat. As fiercely protective of him as I am, he's even more-so protective of me. In a time where chivalry seems to be dead, he opens doors for me and insists on paying, even when I argue with him over it. The look on his face and the sigh when I get to the door and open it before him or quickly pay a bill before he can is priceless. (Hey, it's hard to make my inner-feminist shut up.)

But, he's gone where I cannot follow. And I have to settle with knowing I'm with him in my heart and thoughts every single moment of every single day he's gone.
"

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Saturday, May 19, 2007

Halwa poori aur mei ...


*Burp...
thank you so much!! you are the best bhai in the world!
thanks for making my morning scrumptious. =D i luv you too!
kiss

tick tock its 8:02 am
abhi mei ja rahi hon sounay ab haan.. hehe :P:D

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[i stray umm? ..is all of me?
[i sway to breathe -faith hill]

Thinking i could innocently..
and i wonder what it does to my consciousness

i feel silent for most of my day these days. watching movies and ... i think i need to be medicated, and carefully learn, in order to function at a level where i can cope in the real world. n you know i want the real world. i luv it n want to be in it. ... i guess something is working, something is changing, because i am unwilling to wallow in it now. i am about to force myself out of this bed/ rooms/ ghar/relatives/disability/dos n dont/responsibilities and go out and complete the list of errands i want to do in my life.

ammi is still feeling not so well. n im kind of disturbed cause of that. i seriously want to have a day where..somewhere, with shade and flowers maybe, and eat a picnic, and look at the clouds and look for shapes in them. want to soak my body in heavy rain, want to do something that.. anything anything (even drug or those injections, slashing skin or.. or what not!) that could help me forgetting myself. a change of scenery. a change of state of mind.

wish i could hand somebody all the broken pieces and say "fix this" and they could fix it, and then they would, and life would start getting a little easier for me.

don't really know what to say. it kind of sucks that when im hungry nothing looks or sounds good.. lurking is the belly, rest seem so dumb, so is my head.

lately i like abrupt endings.



sleep well yellowlane, :)
6:59 am

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Said He ...
ummm.. yea sometimes u do it without wanting to have the result going ur way : )

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"And far away in the shimmering red desert, the man in the pointy hat climbed carefully out of his hole. He held in his hands a bowl made of bark. It contained... lots of vitamins, valuable protein and essential fats. See? No mention of wriggling at all."

–Mr. Terry Pratchett, The Last Continent.

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(Sms) msgs of the day..

*Pathan: jub hum chota tha tub hum minaar-e-pakistan se gir gaya tha.
Dosra Pathan: tum marr gaye thay ya bach gaye thay?

Pathan: hum ko yaad nahe hum buhat chota tha.

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*jungle mein sub janwar ek choohay se darnay lagay. shair uss kay samnay nahe aata,billi bhi bhaagti.. phir lougon nay soucha kay akhir maamla kya hai.

pata chala kay chooha MQM mei hai. =D

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*Thought for a lifetime:
It's really hard to wait for the right person in your life...
especially when the wrong ones are so cute.

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Because I Got High
[right click to save the song]
by Afroman.

It's Like, I don't care about nothin man,
roll another blunt, Yea (ohh ohh ohh),

La da da da da da La, Da Daaa,
La da da da, La da da da, La da da daaa

I was gonna clean my room until I got high
I was gonna get up and find the broom but then I got high
my room is still messed up and I know why (why man?) yea heyy,
- cause I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna go to class before I got high
I coulda cheated and I coulda passed but I got high
(La da da da da da da da da)
I am taking it next semester and I know why, (why man?) yea heyy,
- cause I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna go to work but then I got high
I just got a new promotion but I got high
now I'm selling dope and I know why (why man?) yea heayy,
- cause I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna go to court before I got high
I was gonna pay my child support but then I got high
they took my whole paycheck and I know why (why man?) yea heayy,
- cause I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I wasn't gonna run from the cops but I was high
I was gonna pull right over and stop but I was high
(La da da da da da da da da)
Now I am a paraplegic and i know why (why man?) yea heayy,
- because I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna pay my car note until I got high
I wasn't gonna gamble on the boat but then I got high
now the tow truck is pulling away and I know why (why man?) yea heyy,
- because I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I was gonna make love to you but then I got high
now I'm jacking off and I know why, yea heyy,
- cause I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I messed up my entire life because I got high
I lost my kids and wife because I got high
now I'm sleeping on the sidewalk and I know why (why man?) yea heyy,
- cause I got high

(La da da da da da da da da)

I'm gonna stop singing this song because I'm high
I'm singing this whole thing wrong because I'm high
and if I dont sell one copy I know why (why man?) yea heyy,
- cause I'm high

La da da da da da, La da da da, Shoop shooby doo wop.

Get jiggy wit it, skibbidy bee bop diddy do wahhh

- cause I'm high

(hey where the cluck at cuz) [clucks]

Well my name is afroman and I'm from east pomdale (east-pom-dale)
and all the tolweed I be smokin is bomb as helllllll (excelent delivery)
I don't beleive in Hitler, that's what I said (oh my goodness)
so all of you skins (skins) please give me more head

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Friday, May 18, 2007

Would he be sad for a second
A minute?
An hour?
A day?
Weeks?
Years?

Or would he even care at all?

No this is not a hint of suicide or any kind of expected death, im happy with whatever life i have. im just a curious mind wondering what he might be thinking. thats just how i am unfortunately.

Always thinking and wondering....
my sanity is in debt.

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Teaspoonful of Happiness.
khaaya, piya..bachaya ...
pakaya khaya piya bachaya..
that is phir se haath bhi jalaya :D

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__ No One Belongs Here More Than You __

Do you have doubts about life? Are you unsure if it is worth the trouble? Look at the sky: that is for you. Look at each person's face as you pass on the street: those faces are for you. And the street itself, and the ground under the street, and the ball of fire underneath the ground: all these things are for you. They are as much for you as they are for other people. Remember this when you wake up in the morning and think you have nothing. Stand up and face the east. Now praise the sky and praise the light within each person under the sky. It's okay to be unsure. But praise, praise, praise.


Miranda July

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Interludes of Life . . .

1. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile.

2. There are moments in life when you really miss someone that you want to pick them up from your dreams and hug them. Hope you dream of that someone.

3. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want in life.

4. May you have...Enough happiness to make you sweet e
nough trials to make you strong Enough sorrow to keep you human Enough hope to make you happy and enough money to keep you comfortable.

5. When one door of happiness closes, another opens. But we often took so long at the closed door, that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

6. The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch, swing with, never saying a word and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had.

7. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

8. Always put yourself in other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably does hurt the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle a strife; A cruel word may wreck a life, A timely word may level stress, A lovely word may heal and bless.

10. The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves and not to twist them with our own image, otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

11. The happiest people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes along the way.

12. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be grateful for that gift.

13. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

14. Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched and those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

15. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance and find out you still care for that person.

16. A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

17. Love starts with a smile, develops with a kiss and ends with a tear.

18. Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, need to love those who still love, even though they've been hurt before.

19. It hurts to love someone, and not to be loved in return but what is most painful is to love someone and never finds the courage to let the person know how you feel.

20. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.


21. Never say goodbye when you still want to try;
Never give up when you still feel you can take it;
Never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go.

22. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours.

23. There are things you love to hear but you would never hear it from the person whom you would like to hear it from, but don't be deaf to hear it from the person who says it with his heart.
24. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life to the fullest so that when you die, you're smiling and everyone around you is crying . .



stolen.

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Thursday, May 17, 2007

Song Of The Day...

mera pehla pehla pyaar
by K.k OST of -MP3

hehehe no im not going to share my coolgoose username n passcode with you =P
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(Sms) Messaging Of The Day...


*World's most beautiful sentence
=> .. but, i luv you.


and..
world's mot selfish, painful sentence is
=> i luv you, but..
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*Bandar ka baita apnay baap se bola:
"Papa papa mujhay shaadi kerni hai ...

Papa: baita thora intezaar karo, Dulhan abhi sms perh rahi hai ... :P

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sent by mariah the stupido

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Sunday, May 13, 2007


Click ..

Click







FLICK !



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Tonight..
i should sleep more and at night.


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--I Could get back into God if i wanted to... i just don't want to.
--I STILL need to end it




[listening to wish i could fly -roxette]
[current mood a bit tired, actually a little more than that. :)

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Quote Of The Day..
bohot hi keemti rishta hai ye mere liye..jis se juri meri raat hai... mera din hai.. meri zaat hai :)

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"I thought it was 'If a body catch a body,'" I said, "Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody's around - anybody big, I mean - except me. And I'm standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff - I mean they're running and they don't look where they're going I have to come out from somewhere and catch catch them. That's all I do all day. I'd just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it's crazy, but that's the only thing I'd like to be. I know it's crazy."

The Catcher in the Rye
J.D. Salinger

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Saturday, May 12, 2007

Thought Of The Day..

i have always luved speaking a good Urdu. have always luved expressing myself in my own language. luved living in my own biological drives. never ever appreciated my papa for saying that Pakistan is bura bura bura... from whole of my life i have seen ppl calling it bura bura buhat bura,, corrupted or what not. but right now im just hating it like anything. if truth be told my city is burning indeed! right now im so not feeling good living in my own nest. sub kuch waqai kitna bura haina ...... pata nahe maan'nay ko dil kyun nahe kerta.

Responsible Are The Nation.
i dunno who is to blame.
im too young to post a judgment.



*sigh..
im ashamed of being a P.a.k.i.s.t.a.n.i

fcuk

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Friday, May 11, 2007

GIF Of The Day..

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I’m nobody! Who are you?

I’m nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there’s a pair of us—don’t tell!
They’d banish us, you know.

How dreary to be somebody!

How public, like a frog
To tell your name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!


- Emily Dickinson

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i saw you with my eyes.. nothing's changed but i want you in my life (always)
if you would spend this time rebuilding this place...

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Wednesday, May 09, 2007

15th Park Avenue.

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Tuesday, May 08, 2007

[i stray mmmm nothing i guess :) , after spending almost 3 days with a sis n her 2 evil-spirited kids. i think im happy that way. yea i am.]
[i sway to aawan ankhiyaan-
ahista ahista
watched it last night. a very nice movie indeed, nothing exceptional but i liked the lightness in it, liked the way they played it on screen, liked the hero's acting n to add on im already flattered with the way he speaks, his voice, his gestures hehe. i know im stupid cause hes one of the same silly boy from the (worst hairdos) 'deol family. but i like his acting anyway.

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oh my god, i killed sylvia plath -
I went to my dermatologist this morning. summer is here hmm... :) my skin was never suitable for wearing leather braces on it. actually it has bruised the skin of my shank. the same old leather suffocations..didnt like it n turned a bit pale n a mixture of burnt brown or darkish than the original tone. its annoying me, kind of irritating me with constant itching and uneasiness n yet using the brace as well ha!!.. nahe there are things in life YOU HAVE TO' persist on whether you want to or not! so am i slaying my existance.. im a woman who never really appreciate herself being in her own body. it always bothers me in one way or other. khair happens. theres no clue for complaining when you HAVE TO be the way you are supposed to be. created to be. :) no you can not change it. no you can not escape out of your own shell. where will you hide? dust is in my head.

yellowlane i know its such a small matter to be bothered upon. things i never really paid heed upon has now started irritating me mara. i dont know whats going on. life i guess. but heck, i have been going in this same circle for so long. waiting for what, a sign, spark of upheaval, the means, the fortitude. i never wanted this. nothing you say can hurt me worse than i can hurt myself.

i dunno perhaps the environment disturbs me faster than a dermatitis does on skin. timed out!! time to take a shower, time to wear a colorful t shirt, to use some fine shade of lipstick,puff the cheeks with etude powder so that no one get to know how have you been doing underneath.

'woh kehtay haina.. jo hota hai achay k liye hota hai.. ghalat kehtay hain' ... haha line from the song laari chooti ,original ost of ek chalees ki last local.

good evening yellowlane.

phir miltay hain ... :)

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As Frothing Wounds of Roses

As frothing wounds of roses
Harry summer over a wintry sea,
So does thy very strangeness
Bring me ever nearer thee

As the cry of the bird-torn wind
Hastens the heart beyond its usual need,
So shalt thy dear loveliness,
Upon the forlorn unrest of my cold will,
Be as that snowy stain the roses bleed

O as flaming wounds of roses
Marry over summer to the most wintry sea,
So does thy very woman's separateness
Bring me ever nearer thee



Kenneth Patchen

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Please Take Back the Sparrows

Please take back the sparrows. They are bothersome and cute. They are brown and daily all year long. They make a plaything of the wind and the spruce. They come too close. They look right at me with their tiny black eyes. They dart through spaces. They pick up the pieces and the pace. From rooftop to eavetrough to wire to branch -- they spring spring spring spring spring spring spring. They are not sorry. They are not singing. Many they are one they are never not somewhere. They are not not singing. They are not slack. They fear the bluejay and the airedale. They drink from the pond! They scatter thinking. They are not asking or telling they are scattering thinking they are shivering. They are awake or they are shivering. Please, take back the sparrows. They bathe in dust.


Suzanne Buffam, from jubilat and reprinted on Poetry Daily

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Monday, May 07, 2007

Thought Of The Day..

Pata nae bachay hamesha sirf duur se hee kyun pyaray lugtay hain.. Humph mairah aani tumhay kitna yaad ker rahi thein na chaand? .... aaa kuch nahe :$



*dead tired as a dodo, laters.

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Wednesday, May 02, 2007

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[i sway to tere pyaar mein -kaavish]
[i stray knorr chicken noodles? but eh souna hai :$ ]

and only sometimes..

"the end, absolutely justifies the means.
either way, i'll handle it. i just want to keep reminding myself to stay on track towards simplifying, because it's easy to let things get out of hand if i don't.

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my missings of the day..
aww sweetoo i dunno why i have been missing you.. the way you speaks, the way you calls me aani, the way you shows your teeths off. haha muah. can't wait to have you in my arms again!!*bear hugs* jeeti raho! (O:


your anni is just missing you..

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Question Of The Day..

have you been close to someone? so close that you could actually finish his/her sentence,think like them,predict what their next move is and feel every emotion together?

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dharkanein khamosh hain.. kuch kehti nahe
chahatein aankhon se behti nahe ...

iss dard ko dil mein..dil mein rehnay dou
jo khauf hai ankhon se..ankhon se kehnay dou
dukhti naddi, chup chaap behnay dou
jo kehna hai tum.. dheeray se keh dou ...

sub yaad hain jo bandhay thay bundhan
kajal bindia..haathon mein kangan
mehki rehti thi mehndi
gaata rehta tha saawan
inn yaadon ko sapno mein rehnay dou

dharkanein khamosh hain.. kuch kehti nahe
chahatein ankhon se behti nahe ...


Yeh akhiri alvida na ho by faisal kapadia- strings
OST: Shoot out at lokhandwala
[download]

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written by jia.

  ..so lately i have been in this stay-up-till 7am, ungrammatical, nostalgic, talk to myself. paranoid, insomniac, wide eyed, and a little intense. okie maybe little is an understatement. wish i knew if i wanted stability more than the complete range of emotions and melodrama. if only life could be summarized in one simple word...good or bad. -im too young to be stuck somewhere in the middle, sitting on a fence and whining about it. no, i cant write an intro for myself, hence i ask you to read the damn blog. maybe.. you'll find out more through my posts. n in the meanwhile take a panadol handy.. .

tell me you luv me..

Terror Alert Level -

Terror Alert Level

dynasty -

One crow sorrow
Two crows mirth
Three crows a joining
Four crows a birth
Five crows lucky
Six crows cold
Seven crows a secret
Never to be told

mantra -

 

- Lately...

 When I was a child
a story was told
about the devil
and a girl so bold.
He offered her riches,
a fortune of gold,
and lovers abound.
But she lifted her soul,
she lifted her soul clean.
Like the story was told
on a dark country road
the same man appeared to me...

But I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

Now twenty years later
to the place I return where I scorned the angels
for a passion that burned.
There set in a tree
a knot twisted and turned,
the face of a creature Hell bound.
So long ago
could my mind've played jokes on me?
As darkness sets in,
unavoidable sin,
the truth I try not to believe....

That I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

-by Azure Ray

 

ode to meaning..

_________________

One Tree Hill - New Zealand.
Dedicated to Xulfee Bhai, who chose to die in the Summer of 2003 Oct 7.

calm before the storm

_________________

Numb by Linkin Park

And i know
I may end up failing too
But i know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you..

I've become so Numb...I can't feel you there.

moon phase
 

calculated distractions

broken promises ..

said he: tum jaisay doosron say bhaagti ho aur chupati ho .. wohi mere saath bhi kiya....  "  

~*~  current mood ...

                 

coffee files...

'someone once said...

stains..