Monday, August 07, 2006

[current mood sleepy, giggly ]
[listening to on fire -switchfoot]

*sticks her head out the window and drinks some rain* well i remember what i said in the middle of the night last night..

WHY DO I FEEL SO GOD DAMN SATISFIED TODAY???? i wish i could CAPTURE THIS FEELIN IN A BOTTLE AND UNLEASH IT WHEN I FEEL ALL SAD AND CRAP.

im feeling n thinking alot about it lately. well i have always thought about it, im just writing it down for the first time in a while, just my thoughts..they are just here for you to ignore them. bash them. n to look down at me, like always.

hmm.. i had a real good time with you, just like always. i don't know how to be true to my feelings though. i don't know if i can stay the same for long, but i just want to live these moments.. no more no less. lets just ignore the spectrum abhi..i want to think about nothing, life should be lived for right now. afterwards, i think that i've tried so hard to luv, so hard to care. n to be luved n cared.

so hard to accept that i ended up caring so much.
oh, and these rainy days.. i'll just sit up on a roof n watch them gleefully.

but, hey! this blog doesnt mean anything in the end. you better believe me. not.


good eve,
17:56

1 lend me some sugar.

 

written by jia.

  ..so lately i have been in this stay-up-till 7am, ungrammatical, nostalgic, talk to myself. paranoid, insomniac, wide eyed, and a little intense. okie maybe little is an understatement. wish i knew if i wanted stability more than the complete range of emotions and melodrama. if only life could be summarized in one simple word...good or bad. -im too young to be stuck somewhere in the middle, sitting on a fence and whining about it. no, i cant write an intro for myself, hence i ask you to read the damn blog. maybe.. you'll find out more through my posts. n in the meanwhile take a panadol handy.. .

tell me you luv me..

Terror Alert Level -

dynasty -

One crow sorrow
Two crows mirth
Three crows a joining
Four crows a birth
Five crows lucky
Six crows cold
Seven crows a secret
Never to be told

mantra -

 

- Lately...

 When I was a child
a story was told
about the devil
and a girl so bold.
He offered her riches,
a fortune of gold,
and lovers abound.
But she lifted her soul,
she lifted her soul clean.
Like the story was told
on a dark country road
the same man appeared to me...

But I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

Now twenty years later
to the place I return where I scorned the angels
for a passion that burned.
There set in a tree
a knot twisted and turned,
the face of a creature Hell bound.
So long ago
could my mind've played jokes on me?
As darkness sets in,
unavoidable sin,
the truth I try not to believe....

That I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

-by Azure Ray

 

ode to meaning..

_________________

One Tree Hill - New Zealand.
Dedicated to Xulfee Bhai, who chose to die in the Summer of 2003 Oct 7.

calm before the storm

_________________

Numb by Linkin Park

And i know
I may end up failing too
But i know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you..
I've become so Numb...I can't feel you there.

moon phase

calculated distractions

• aZ!
• max
• Aks
• Atif
• Ines
• just iffi
• jaali jojo

broken promises ..

said he: tum jaisay doosron say bhaagti ho aur chupati ho .. wohi mere saath bhi kiya....  "  

~*~  current mood ...

                 

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