Monday, May 21, 2007

Writing Of The Day....

"He didn't have a chance to take my phone number with him when he left, so he asked me in the e-mail to send him my number and he'd try to call me next time he got a chance. So, now I wait for him to get my reply and wait for middle-of-the-night phone call so I can hear his voice for the first time in over two months. The thought of hearing his voice again is enough to keep me going for quite awhile.

Somewhere deep inside, I wish I could go to him. I wish I could fight by his side. I just wish I could be with him through this. I want to be the brave female fighting along side her man, stride for stride, just like my favorite fantasy novel and Final Fantasy game female heroes. He'd never let me, though. He'd send me home in a heart beat. As fiercely protective of him as I am, he's even more-so protective of me. In a time where chivalry seems to be dead, he opens doors for me and insists on paying, even when I argue with him over it. The look on his face and the sigh when I get to the door and open it before him or quickly pay a bill before he can is priceless. (Hey, it's hard to make my inner-feminist shut up.)

But, he's gone where I cannot follow. And I have to settle with knowing I'm with him in my heart and thoughts every single moment of every single day he's gone. "

0 lend me some sugar.

 
written by jia.

  ..so lately i have been in this stay-up-till 7am, ungrammatical, nostalgic, talk to myself. paranoid, insomniac, wide eyed, and a little intense. okie maybe little is an understatement. wish i knew if i wanted stability more than the complete range of emotions and melodrama. if only life could be summarized in one simple word...good or bad. -im too young to be stuck somewhere in the middle, sitting on a fence and whining about it. no, i cant write an intro for myself, hence i ask you to read the damn blog. maybe.. you'll find out more through my posts. n in the meanwhile take a panadol handy.. .

tell me you luv me..

Terror Alert Level -

Terror Alert Level

dynasty -

One crow sorrow
Two crows mirth
Three crows a joining
Four crows a birth
Five crows lucky
Six crows cold
Seven crows a secret
Never to be told

mantra -
 

- Lately...

 When I was a child
a story was told
about the devil
and a girl so bold.
He offered her riches,
a fortune of gold,
and lovers abound.
But she lifted her soul,
she lifted her soul clean.
Like the story was told
on a dark country road
the same man appeared to me...

But I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

Now twenty years later
to the place I return where I scorned the angels
for a passion that burned.
There set in a tree
a knot twisted and turned,
the face of a creature Hell bound.
So long ago
could my mind've played jokes on me?
As darkness sets in,
unavoidable sin,
the truth I try not to believe....

That I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

-by Azure Ray

 

ode to meaning..

_________________

One Tree Hill - New Zealand.
Dedicated to Xulfee Bhai, who chose to die in the Summer of 2003 Oct 7.

calm before the storm

_________________

Numb by Linkin Park

And i know
I may end up failing too
But i know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you..
I've become so Numb...I can't feel you there.

moon phase
 

calculated distractions

broken promises ..

said he: tum jaisay doosron say bhaagti ho aur chupati ho .. wohi mere saath bhi kiya....  "  

~*~  current mood ...

                 

coffee files...

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