Wednesday, June 27, 2007


[i sway saiyyan -kailash kher]
[i stray a cup of tea, murmurings of some soft music , and the sound of drizzling from outside the pane]
Randomly Affected -

aaj buhat maza kiya.. it was one of the most memorable days of my life. nahe yunhi.. :)

baarish mei khuub bheegay, garam garam chai mei girtay woh baarish kay thand se bharpuur raindrops. aur phir poora ek ghanta rooftop per hee baarish kay phir se shroo honay ka intezaar..haha bhai se 500 ki bet bhi lagi kay half an hour mein phir se shroo ho jaigi woh.. damn, blimey, mei bet haar gyee, per paisay nahe diye uss ko phir bhi.. khuub laraiee huee. hahaha :)

din itnay achay aur itnay hee unconstructive guzer rahay hain.. magar bhai kehta hai jo cheez per jub jaisa react kerna hua karay waisa hee kiya karo,, kum ziada kuch na kiya karo. baarish hai, monsoon hai..saal baad ayegee phir, jitna maza kerna hai ker lou phir. waisay bhi shayd bas kul hee se life wapis se routine mei aa jaigi..so bas jo thora sa acha change aye woh tou theek se feel ker lay insaan apni rooh tuk. haina? ..afterall acha lugta hai khud ko kisi bhi sense mei zinda rakhna.

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tumse baat kernay kay baad hazaar sawal uth rahay hain aaj jee mein... kaash kabhi hum dono ek dosray se sub kuch share ker payein. mujhay rishtoo'n mei khamoshi nahe pasand. aur tum chahtay ho mei sub kuch tumharay bina hee samajh jaya karon.. mere liye mumkin nahe. mei assumptions se duur rehna chahti hon..life nay yehi seekhaya hai hamesha. mere liye ek rishtay ki stem ko mehsoos kernay se kahin ziada yeh cheez zaroori hoti hai kay 2 loug uss rishtay ko lay ker kaisay chal rahay hain.. mei beginning aur end per focus kernay walon mei se nahe, mei uss sub kay shroo aur phir khatum honay kay pehlay kahin durmiyaan mei jee rahi hoti hon.. woh raasta, woh waasta, woh nazara, woh 2 lougon kay durmiyaan hum'ahangi, 2 loug ek dosray kay saath ko kaisay sunbhaaltay hain..woh ehmiat rakhta hai sub. .. tum kub sumjho gay hun? :)


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aur aur aur..mmmm yea, poora week net aur electricity nay dhokay diye, in result of it mei bas candles ki pictures hee laiti rahi..kabhi kabhi kuch dayr kay undhairay mei aur ho bhi kya sukta hai haan? :) haha.. whatever :P
















oh, n in the end
and in the end my ultimate luv for music:
download here saiyyan by kailash kher
such a wonderful wonderful wonderful composition..it's continues classical playing is plainly soothing my soul. reading my state of mind, engulfing me with some unknown thoughts for our relation.


mei.. jia,
4:35am

0 lend me some sugar.

 
written by jia.

  ..so lately i have been in this stay-up-till 7am, ungrammatical, nostalgic, talk to myself. paranoid, insomniac, wide eyed, and a little intense. okie maybe little is an understatement. wish i knew if i wanted stability more than the complete range of emotions and melodrama. if only life could be summarized in one simple word...good or bad. -im too young to be stuck somewhere in the middle, sitting on a fence and whining about it. no, i cant write an intro for myself, hence i ask you to read the damn blog. maybe.. you'll find out more through my posts. n in the meanwhile take a panadol handy.. .

tell me you luv me..

Terror Alert Level -

Terror Alert Level

dynasty -

One crow sorrow
Two crows mirth
Three crows a joining
Four crows a birth
Five crows lucky
Six crows cold
Seven crows a secret
Never to be told

mantra -
 

- Lately...

 When I was a child
a story was told
about the devil
and a girl so bold.
He offered her riches,
a fortune of gold,
and lovers abound.
But she lifted her soul,
she lifted her soul clean.
Like the story was told
on a dark country road
the same man appeared to me...

But I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

Now twenty years later
to the place I return where I scorned the angels
for a passion that burned.
There set in a tree
a knot twisted and turned,
the face of a creature Hell bound.
So long ago
could my mind've played jokes on me?
As darkness sets in,
unavoidable sin,
the truth I try not to believe....

That I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

-by Azure Ray

 

ode to meaning..

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One Tree Hill - New Zealand.
Dedicated to Xulfee Bhai, who chose to die in the Summer of 2003 Oct 7.

calm before the storm

_________________

Numb by Linkin Park

And i know
I may end up failing too
But i know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you..
I've become so Numb...I can't feel you there.

moon phase
 

calculated distractions

broken promises ..

said he: tum jaisay doosron say bhaagti ho aur chupati ho .. wohi mere saath bhi kiya....  "  

~*~  current mood ...

                 

coffee files...

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