Thursday, November 15, 2007

[listening to we ride -rihanna]
[mood way much lighter than i was dwelling in these past few weeks]

Words of luv and words so leisured, words are poison darts of pleasure ...
so.. from now on, im assuming that you are dead to me. now all i was looking, searching, waiting, writing, kissing, missing,fcuking, digging, remembering, dreaming, pitying, cursing, luving, caring, hugging, pissing, praying for ..n in all the rest of the world's present participles' in my life or of my life (in my writings also) , i'll suppose as im talking about a dead lost spirit. the LATE you.

n now, all the lines of communication are deleted/blocked. therer is no way to reach me.

after years of telling
THE you
my thoughts.

i want to keep my secrets.
i don't recognize you in person anymore.


you know only that a few hours before, it was yesterday; a few later, it will be tomorrow. :)


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by the way, today was nice. bhai was at home. we watched the India Pakistan 4th ODI cric match together. then in evenning, he took me out for a long drive n we talked over a lot of stuff, n then that unique delicious dessert im failing to recall the name right now. i finished the night (n not to mention my same stooopid thoughts) with watching the om shanti om alone, waisay there was nothing exceptional in movie except the SRK himself n his heroine was pretty too, but i think the 'Bhool bhulaiyaan was way too much better to watch as compared to om shanti om. but oh well, sharukh khan? ... :)

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umm..does anyone ask for the phone numbers? hehe! i don't have them anymore.
n im thinkging to restrict the yellowlane to my chosen readers only.


yours sincerely,
neurotica

3:39a



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well, for the pictures of my day? ...
yea i bought this new shade of brown nailpaint.

n for that KUTTAY KA BACHA ... haha.. believe it or not, i have been sleeping with him lately . yea he is sooooo teeeny meeny n i hardly be about to hug him properly that is before falling asleep eh. oh how i luv to hold him! you'll never know how it feels. =D

0 lend me some sugar.

 

written by jia.

  ..so lately i have been in this stay-up-till 7am, ungrammatical, nostalgic, talk to myself. paranoid, insomniac, wide eyed, and a little intense. okie maybe little is an understatement. wish i knew if i wanted stability more than the complete range of emotions and melodrama. if only life could be summarized in one simple word...good or bad. -im too young to be stuck somewhere in the middle, sitting on a fence and whining about it. no, i cant write an intro for myself, hence i ask you to read the damn blog. maybe.. you'll find out more through my posts. n in the meanwhile take a panadol handy.. .

tell me you luv me..

Terror Alert Level -

dynasty -

One crow sorrow
Two crows mirth
Three crows a joining
Four crows a birth
Five crows lucky
Six crows cold
Seven crows a secret
Never to be told

mantra -

 

- Lately...

 When I was a child
a story was told
about the devil
and a girl so bold.
He offered her riches,
a fortune of gold,
and lovers abound.
But she lifted her soul,
she lifted her soul clean.
Like the story was told
on a dark country road
the same man appeared to me...

But I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

Now twenty years later
to the place I return where I scorned the angels
for a passion that burned.
There set in a tree
a knot twisted and turned,
the face of a creature Hell bound.
So long ago
could my mind've played jokes on me?
As darkness sets in,
unavoidable sin,
the truth I try not to believe....

That I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

-by Azure Ray

 

ode to meaning..

_________________

One Tree Hill - New Zealand.
Dedicated to Xulfee Bhai, who chose to die in the Summer of 2003 Oct 7.

calm before the storm

_________________

Numb by Linkin Park

And i know
I may end up failing too
But i know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you..
I've become so Numb...I can't feel you there.

moon phase

calculated distractions

• aZ!
• max
• Aks
• Atif
• Ines
• just iffi
• jaali jojo

broken promises ..

said he: tum jaisay doosron say bhaagti ho aur chupati ho .. wohi mere saath bhi kiya....  "  

~*~  current mood ...

                 

coffee files...

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