Monday, December 17, 2007

[music my own prison -creed]
[mood you dont need to know]

i often wonder, how many of us are aware of our true blueprint?
Palpitating. my hyperactive self refused to take this longer. so here i am, again.

well... so this has been happening to me for the past couple of weeks. i would be in the middle of something... a party, a gathering, in a car, in the street..on the phone ... and i would find myself completely dissociated from my surroundings. it is like, i suddenly wont hear the noise anymore, and also perhaps loose my vision of whats going on... it feels like i am walking around inside an air bubble and i am completely cut off from the rest of the world.

on the other note... yesterday i found myself walking without the brace in my room. n now im experiencing a great pain in my right knee. n it is the pain that showed me the true color of life. can't i just change my body with poor somebody? mujhay pain se problem nahe hai. problem yeh hai kay itni choti se cheez se problem kyun ho rahi hai? ..

i wish my life were carefree n spontaneous.
do you understand - or am i being a bad friend?
what? me? bitter?? nah.


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okie check out the letter luv letter our servant wrote for his girlfriend. :D




[Stolen: by jia]
05:45a

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written by jia.

  ..so lately i have been in this stay-up-till 7am, ungrammatical, nostalgic, talk to myself. paranoid, insomniac, wide eyed, and a little intense. okie maybe little is an understatement. wish i knew if i wanted stability more than the complete range of emotions and melodrama. if only life could be summarized in one simple word...good or bad. -im too young to be stuck somewhere in the middle, sitting on a fence and whining about it. no, i cant write an intro for myself, hence i ask you to read the damn blog. maybe.. you'll find out more through my posts. n in the meanwhile take a panadol handy.. .

tell me you luv me..

Terror Alert Level -

Terror Alert Level

dynasty -

One crow sorrow
Two crows mirth
Three crows a joining
Four crows a birth
Five crows lucky
Six crows cold
Seven crows a secret
Never to be told

mantra -
 

- Lately...

 When I was a child
a story was told
about the devil
and a girl so bold.
He offered her riches,
a fortune of gold,
and lovers abound.
But she lifted her soul,
she lifted her soul clean.
Like the story was told
on a dark country road
the same man appeared to me...

But I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

Now twenty years later
to the place I return where I scorned the angels
for a passion that burned.
There set in a tree
a knot twisted and turned,
the face of a creature Hell bound.
So long ago
could my mind've played jokes on me?
As darkness sets in,
unavoidable sin,
the truth I try not to believe....

That I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

-by Azure Ray

 

ode to meaning..

_________________

One Tree Hill - New Zealand.
Dedicated to Xulfee Bhai, who chose to die in the Summer of 2003 Oct 7.

calm before the storm

_________________

Numb by Linkin Park

And i know
I may end up failing too
But i know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you..
I've become so Numb...I can't feel you there.

moon phase
 

calculated distractions

broken promises ..

said he: tum jaisay doosron say bhaagti ho aur chupati ho .. wohi mere saath bhi kiya....  "  

~*~  current mood ...

                 

coffee files...

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