Friday, December 07, 2007

echo persuades us.
the sky turned pink and then purple and then sun went to bed.

i mean - its not like im holding out. i want everything - everyone. like, im not impatient about it. i have faith in it. in luv. im being vague. thats okie. no, you dont need to know exactly what im talking about.

my throat hurts n its full of mucus. talk to me on the phone n you'll know what im talking about. haha


well im not going to lie - i really miss hamster. but at least - well, it's not in that desperate i-need-him-right-now way. just a 'oh-sigh way. less urgent and anxious filled. all in all though, no denying, i miss him. please talk to me. i really want to know how are you doing these days? ... i really want to know if you re alright? ..

its kind of.... disturbing. im... a creepster. for real. a true loner. to the core. i have problems. i just wish i knew what they were.


ironically, this post has a lot of backspaces in it. such is life.

i want to take a hot shower, a panadol, tranquilizer,multivitamin, cup of milk. lie in bed and sleep. leave me alone. n don't leave sms/msgs when im sleeping.

bye.. beautiful. (: muah.


[listenin to koi janay na -ahmed jahanzeb ~ n gowd..im just luving listening to it!]

3:35a

0 lend me some sugar.

 

written by jia.

  ..so lately i have been in this stay-up-till 7am, ungrammatical, nostalgic, talk to myself. paranoid, insomniac, wide eyed, and a little intense. okie maybe little is an understatement. wish i knew if i wanted stability more than the complete range of emotions and melodrama. if only life could be summarized in one simple word...good or bad. -im too young to be stuck somewhere in the middle, sitting on a fence and whining about it. no, i cant write an intro for myself, hence i ask you to read the damn blog. maybe.. you'll find out more through my posts. n in the meanwhile take a panadol handy.. .

tell me you luv me..

Terror Alert Level -

dynasty -

One crow sorrow
Two crows mirth
Three crows a joining
Four crows a birth
Five crows lucky
Six crows cold
Seven crows a secret
Never to be told

mantra -

 

- Lately...

 When I was a child
a story was told
about the devil
and a girl so bold.
He offered her riches,
a fortune of gold,
and lovers abound.
But she lifted her soul,
she lifted her soul clean.
Like the story was told
on a dark country road
the same man appeared to me...

But I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

Now twenty years later
to the place I return where I scorned the angels
for a passion that burned.
There set in a tree
a knot twisted and turned,
the face of a creature Hell bound.
So long ago
could my mind've played jokes on me?
As darkness sets in,
unavoidable sin,
the truth I try not to believe....

That I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

-by Azure Ray

 

ode to meaning..

_________________

One Tree Hill - New Zealand.
Dedicated to Xulfee Bhai, who chose to die in the Summer of 2003 Oct 7.

calm before the storm

_________________

Numb by Linkin Park

And i know
I may end up failing too
But i know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you..
I've become so Numb...I can't feel you there.

moon phase

calculated distractions

• aZ!
• max
• Aks
• Atif
• Ines
• just iffi
• jaali jojo

broken promises ..

said he: tum jaisay doosron say bhaagti ho aur chupati ho .. wohi mere saath bhi kiya....  "  

~*~  current mood ...

                 

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