Tuesday, June 27, 2006

''jub bhi aankhon mein ashq bhar aye, loug kuch doobtay nazar aye
mud'datein ho gyein sahar dekhay, koi aahat koi khabar aye...

chand jitnay bhi gum huay shabh kay, sub kay ilzaam mere sar aye
mujh ko apna pata 'thikana milay.. woh bhi ek baar mere ghar aye''

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Gulzar With Punchamda...

'Yaad hai baarishon kay din thay woh, Pancham! aur pahari kay neechay wadee mein dhundh se jhank ker nikulti huee rail ki patriyaan guzerti thein.. aur dhundh mein aisay lug rahay thay hum jaisay dou paodhay pas bethay hon. hum buhat dayr patriyon per bethay uss musafir ka ziker kertay rahay jis ko aana tha pichli shabh, per uss ki aamad ka waqt tulta raha. hum buhat dayr patriyon per bethay huay train ka intezaar kertay rahay. train ayee na uss ka waqt hua, ... aur tum yunhi dou qadam chal ker dhundh per pao'n rakhay gum ho gaye..

mei akaila hon dhundh mein, Puncham!

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I remember conversations saved for posterity, i felt the way the walls embraced me. i remember the way it always seemed warm even if i was freezing. and i remember late night conversations with faces i haven't seen in ages. i remember making plans. what happened to them? i cannot say. some may yet still live in the black of my eyes, others have come and gone, and still others will just never be. i like that i can't tell the difference between memories and dreams when i think back on reality and fantasy side by side. it makes me happy. have i lived a life that extrodinary, that it all seems too wild to be true?

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Saturday, June 24, 2006

ah,well.. im not dead! i'll start posting again .... slowly.
n yea, you can have my password again.. oh, you know why.

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written by jia.

  ..so lately i have been in this stay-up-till 7am, ungrammatical, nostalgic, talk to myself. paranoid, insomniac, wide eyed, and a little intense. okie maybe little is an understatement. wish i knew if i wanted stability more than the complete range of emotions and melodrama. if only life could be summarized in one simple word...good or bad. -im too young to be stuck somewhere in the middle, sitting on a fence and whining about it. no, i cant write an intro for myself, hence i ask you to read the damn blog. maybe.. you'll find out more through my posts. n in the meanwhile take a panadol handy.. .

tell me you luv me..

Terror Alert Level -

Terror Alert Level

dynasty -

One crow sorrow
Two crows mirth
Three crows a joining
Four crows a birth
Five crows lucky
Six crows cold
Seven crows a secret
Never to be told

mantra -
 

- Lately...

 When I was a child
a story was told
about the devil
and a girl so bold.
He offered her riches,
a fortune of gold,
and lovers abound.
But she lifted her soul,
she lifted her soul clean.
Like the story was told
on a dark country road
the same man appeared to me...

But I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

Now twenty years later
to the place I return where I scorned the angels
for a passion that burned.
There set in a tree
a knot twisted and turned,
the face of a creature Hell bound.
So long ago
could my mind've played jokes on me?
As darkness sets in,
unavoidable sin,
the truth I try not to believe....

That I reached, I reached
through the rain to the Devil's feet.

-by Azure Ray

 

ode to meaning..

_________________

One Tree Hill - New Zealand.
Dedicated to Xulfee Bhai, who chose to die in the Summer of 2003 Oct 7.

calm before the storm

_________________

Numb by Linkin Park

And i know
I may end up failing too
But i know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you..
I've become so Numb...I can't feel you there.

moon phase
 

calculated distractions

broken promises ..

said he: tum jaisay doosron say bhaagti ho aur chupati ho .. wohi mere saath bhi kiya....  "  

~*~  current mood ...

                 

coffee files...

'someone once said...

stains..